SweetPoyzin is Going to Grad School!

SweetPoyzin is Ivy League bound!

Today I learned I’ve been accepted to Johns Hopkins University!  I’ll be pursuing a Masters in Museum Studies and Non-Profit Management.  I’m super stoked!

The bummer is that I’m $3916 short of the tuition payment due by August 22nd.  I’ve been interviewing for jobs all summer with no luck and I’ve been taking temp jobs where I can get them.

In the meantime, I’ve applied for some grants and I’m going on more interviews tomorrow. I’ve also set up this GoFundMe Page in an attempt to make up some of the difference. Even if you guys donate just a little or even promote the page, it would mean so much to me!

Regardless of whether you donate or not, I am so grateful for all of you.  You’ve been such an awesome support group throughout the years and I’m so glad to know you!

Chapter 3.94

Later that autumn I headed over to the ranch and got a nasty surprise.

Someone had dumped a wicked mean stallion in the exercise yard.  He was 800 different kinds of nasty and nearly kicked me for just approaching.  I threw the other horses into the stables so he wouldn’t hurt them and then I set to figuring out where this thing came from.

After he tried to kick me again I lost my patience with him.

“NO!  This is not how we behave here, damn it!  This is a respectable ranch!”

Suddenly, Tiberius was by my side.  I think he was trying to protect me.  The sad thing is, the poor guy is so old that I don’t think he’d be able to do much, but I appreciated the effort.

I was still trying to figure out what to do about this intruder when my phone rang.

“Did you find the horse, Mrs. McNamara?”  The voice on the other line was melodious and full of a rich Southern accent.

“Excuse me?  Who the hell are you?  And you can’t just leave this monster here!  He’s dangerous!  Also, if you want me to train him there are fees and contracts!”  I was livid that someone would take advantage of the ranch and my time like this.

‘If you don’t take him, Mrs. McNamara, we’ll have him put down.  We’ve heard about your prowess in the ring.  If you turn this horse into a prize-winning racehorse, we’ll make it worth your while.”

I couldn’t just abandon the horse knowing they were going to euthanize him.  Crap.

“How worth my while?  I’ll want at least…$50,000 for this one.”  I started large knowing they’d go lower.

“We’ll pay you double, Mrs. McNamara.  See you later.”

What the fuck was that?  I didn’t even know who I was working for but $100,000 was worth the mystery.  I got right to work.

This horse has one purpose: he’s here to kick my ass.  Of that I am certain.  I named him Fury.  I have no idea if he already has a name but for my purposes he needs a name and Fury is pretty much perfect.

I’m sure I can break him in time.  It’s going to take a lot of horse granola and ice packs but this horse is going to be a winner if it kills me…and it might.


Winter rolled around and with it came bucket of snow.

I wasn’t too upset about it, though.  If fact, I was downright elated!

I was up before the sun baking cookies and pies and cinnamon rolls.  Why?

My boys were home from boarding school!  We had so much planned for the brief two weeks they would be back.

Our first adventure was a family breakfast followed by a trip to the Winter Festival.

We all piled in the van and headed to the city square.

I had to laugh.  Owen is quite athletic but he was not having the ice skating.

I took it upon myself to show the boys how their mom still rocks even though she is now “old” and “uncool.”  Put that in your sock and sniff it, kiddos!

Not to be outdone by her mom or brothers, Ellie Jayne was a badass bull rider.  Perhaps she’ll be the one to take over my legacy when I’m gone?  She sure seems like she might be an equestrian!

Finn says he sees a lot of me in Ellie Jayne.

I have no idea what he is talking about.  Pfft.

Later that evening we hosted the annual Snowflake Day party.  Twenty of our family and friends showed up to celebrate.

I noticed how empty the house looked.  Not only were Finn, the boys, and I leaving for France in the morning, but we were also moving in the spring.  There was no reason for the huge house anymore.  My dad was staying on to watch Ellie while we were in France, but he was eager to get out on his own.  He had purchased a house and was ready for the next phase of his life.  The boys would be leaving for college soon.  Finn and I weren’t getting any younger and a three-story farm just wasn’t going to work forever.  It was time to downsize.

I realized this would be the last of the huge parties.  Everything was changing.  I felt a stab of nostalgia.  Alas, life goes on whether I want it to or not.

State of the Blog

SweetPoyzin is a hot mess.

Hello, dear readers!

I am (once again) terribly sorry for the lack of blog updates.  My life has gotten rather crazy the last couple of weeks.  I’m still searching for work but I’ve gotten a couple of temporary assignments through a staffing agency.  I recently finished my application to graduate school so now all I can do is wait.  Oh…and I moved.

0715151200This mess is my office.  That table there on the left is supposed to be my desk.  At this moment, I don’t even know where my computer tower is, but I did find my two monitors so that’s a start.  Since chapter 3.93 was the last of my pre-written updates, it might be a while before you see the McNamara Family again.

However, the rest of the house is looking pretty darn good!

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The kitchen is complete!

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That space right there?  The only counter space in the whole kitchen.

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Luckily, I have a crafty husband so he added a counter top on our new dishwasher.  OH MY GAWD…I HAVE A DISHWASHER.  This is the best thing about the house.  Oh, and the washer/dryer in the basement.

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I also finished my stepson’s room.  Not pictured: his bazillion toys which I put in there today.

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And the most important aspect: the library in the dining room.  Also, the master bedroom is finished, too.  I have a real bed.  Hubs and I have been sleeping on an air mattress for three years because our apartment stairwell was too narrow to get a mattress and box-spring to the third floor.

I’m off and running again.  I have a phone interview at 2pm…which is about 5 minutes from now.  Thank you for all your support.  You all must be saints since you put up with so much from me!

See you soon!

Chapter 3.93

Note from SweetPoyzin: So I lost track of time in game and to keep things relatively in order we’re skipping way, way ahead.  Oops!

Three years later…

Our giant year of birthdays started off with Ellie Jayne.

Being the baby of the family we threw her a pretty large birthday bash.

Back when Mom died, we all expected Dad to stay just a few months but he’s still living in the attic apartment.  I love having him around and Ellie Jayne just adores Grampy.

He’s super patient with her, too.  He relentlessly tries to teach her new things even though it doesn’t always go according to plan.

The first thing Finn tired to tackle was potty training.  Muppet attempted to help but she kept getting distracted by the birds.

In the end, Ellie has us all wrapped around her little finger.

She also looks a lot like Mom.  Aside from Finn’s eye color she’s fair skinned.  Finn tells me the black hair and pointy ears come from me (he’s not wrong) but I still can’t help but wonder if Mom’s in there somehow.


Sadly, we lost Maggie shortly after Ellie’s birthday.

Patrick spent a lot of time at our house after that.  We offered him the basement in the barn but he refused.

Instead he just made things awkward by crying every time he came over which upset all of us.


Later that year, we had another birthday party.

The only difference was this one was for dogs.  Miss Muppet was getting on in age and we thought she should have a party as well.

All the best dogs were invited…which meant just Copernicus and Dinky.

Poor Muppet was just a tiny thing in comparison to the others.

It didn’t seem to matter, though.  She rocked the puppy party in style.  She’s still my #1 girl after all these years!


And, as usual, Grandma Liddy was pregnant…again.

I honestly don’t know which number baby she’s on at this point.  Regardless, she went into labor at Muppet’s party because that’s how she rolls.

Miss Ivy Leigh Lox joined her older sister Morgan Fae Lox and a slew of other family members.

Sadly, she’ll be the last little girl for Grandma Liddy.  After a very, very, very long life, she’s finally become a senior.

She’s still pretty much the most beautiful woman I’ve ever known.


Last but not least, Liv and I rounded out the birthdays.

Liv was excited but these days she’s up for anything.  I was not feeling middle age so I was less enthused.

Finn threw a HUGE party for the two of us…much to my chagrin.

“Oh I don’t know what to wish for!!!”

“You best pick something, Penn.  You don’t have a choice!”

She was right.  Before I knew it, I was spinning around into middle age.

And my wish came true.  I wished that I would still be one hot mama.  I made out ok.

Finn was quite pleased with the way things were turning out for us.  I had to agree with him.  Our boys would be home from boarding school soon, our daughter was thriving, the ranch was taking off.  Everything was perfect.

“May I dance with the birthday girl?”

I’d have to say this was probably the best birthday I’ve ever had.

Chapter 3.92

Life on the ranch gets crazy after Finn turns 40!

Note from SweetPoyzin: Super short one today.  I thought being out of college would mean more time to write.  Apparently, I was wrong!

Finn’s birthday was upon us.  He was hitting the big 4-0!

I had planned a big party for him and invited as many friends and family as the bar would allow.

It was quite an event!

We packed the place full with my family, Finn’s family, and all of our friends!

Finn was honestly excited to finally reach 40.  He was looking forward to feeling like “an adult.”  Let’s be honest, though, he’ll always be a kid at heart…Ellie was going to make sure of that!

I must admit, I’m not complaining about him being 40 either.  I think he only got better with age!


Even though he was ready  to be 40, Finn had a bit of a mid-life crisis.

He ended up quitting his lucrative veterinary job in order to pursue life on the ranch with me.  Needless to say, with two kids in very expensive boarding schools and a fairly new baby, I was more than a little pissed.  Finn told me to give him a chance and if he couldn’t make it on the show jumping circuit he’d get his old job back.

I threw him on Juniper and told him to show me what he could do.

Much to my surprise, he was really good!  Although, to be fair, I think it was more Juniper.  She was quite the jumper in the international ring.

I told Finn that if he could turn Blister into a champion jumper by Christmas I’d let him stay on the ranch to train jumpers.  He’s got 4 weeks to show me he’s worth it in the ring and I know Blister will be a challenge.  I’ve been training her for 2 months now and she still can’t come in past 2nd.

Sadly, the whole purpose of the ranch is to train these horses and sell them.  There was a bidding war over Lucan and he hadn’t even seen a racetrack yet.  We ended up getting $20,000 for him and $35,000 for Juniper.  With Tiberius quickly aging I’m going to need to track down a new stud racehorse soon!