I was running out of money again. This seems to be an ongoing issue when you don’t have a steady job.
Luckily, it was finally spring and the gardens were in bloom. I went to the community garden near the beach and grabbed me some fruits and veggies.
It’s an all-in-one kinda place so I was able to get some eggs and honey, too.
And being near the beach I got some salmon for dinner. So a good trip but this is not a sustainable lifestyle. I needed a plan.
My plan was simple: I went to the wishing well. It was worth a shot.
I wished for good fortune.
The wishing well granted my wish and dropped an effing car in the garden of the museum. I sold it for a nice $36,000 and took it as a sign of good things to come.
I thought it was time for a 5th date.
We went to a local bar and dance club and I ordered us some wings.
“I promise, Penny. Whatever you’ve got to tell me about your past I’m not going to run away. Not immediately at least…I’ve gotta finish these wings!”
I sat there and thought about whether or not he was serious about the running. I mean…I’d run from me if I could so what would stop him?
“Ok, well…” I told him everything. From the very beginning with Olivia’s death to the very end when I woke up at Whispering Pines. I told him about Peter and the kids. About Xander being the one who actually died. I even told him about being a world famous brain surgeon at 25. And that I feel so screwed up these days because I have no idea who I am anymore. I told him why I ran away and that everyone in my family followed me here to this country miles and miles and miles away from my hometown.
I couldn’t even look at him when I finished. I had this feeling that he was looking at me like I’d lost my mind and might still need to be locked up at Whispering Pines.
Finally he broke the silence.
“Would you like to dance?”
“Did you not hear me, Finn?! I’m a total nutcase and you are probably just feeling sorry for me. I don’t want a pity dance. You can run now.”
“Oh come off it, Penelope. We’ve all got a past. If you think mine is all rainbows and unicorns you’re mistaken. No, I’ve got a teenage son out there somewhere from a one-night stand I had after my senior prom. My high school girlfriend had the baby while she was away at college but since we went to two different schools she didn’t have to tell me until the kid was safely living with some other family. I was so angry! I wanted that baby even though I was only 19. Granted, my story is nowhere near as terrible as yours. But…you’ve got to move on sometime. Why not now?”
He was right. I had to move on. Would I ever stop loving my kids despite the fact that they were only a figment of a damaged mind? No. But that didn’t mean there wasn’t room for more love.
“So let me ask you again, Penny. Would you like to dance?”
And so we danced.
“Hey, Finn…would you like to come over again tonight?”
We hopped in my car and drove through the country with the top down and some good rock n’ roll playing.
We even made out in the car like teenagers!
And then I got my ass abducted because Finn didn’t think I was weird enough already.